i thought, the other night...

...while reading Blue Like Jazz (which is a quite thought-provoking book on Christian Spirituality), that I am seriously no better than anyone else... I'm just really good at making myself look pretty close to perfect. But I still give into temptations. I still hate, I still judge, I still am filled with scorn and pride. I still disobey God on a regular basis. I'm just really good at covering it up... keeping it all inside and on the outside creating a picture-perfect image. Oftentimes I even fool myself. If you ask me, I think that's grosser than actually sinning out in the open for everyone to see.